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In Remembrance began as a way to express the grief I felt after my Grandma Carter passed following a long battle with cancer during the summer of 2004. I had been very close with her and spent many summers at her home in northern Ohio. I miss her deeply to this day.

The following year was spent completing my photography degree, which required a two semester commercial photography course (Applied Photography). The older images here (c. 2005) are a portion of that final portfolio which was completed for my graduation requirement. During the length of the course, I ascertained that these images were editorial portraits.

The work was resurrected in December 2015 after I attended a workshop entitled Voice into Vision with Cig Harvey. I never felt that this project had truly found closure and sought to find some answers about how to expand the imagery. I soon realized (after a decade) that the images I had created were exploring the personal loss and grief I had been experiencing, utilizing models as surrogates for my own self. As a result, many of the images have assumed new titles.

At the time, I was deeply depressed as a result of unexpectedly losing three family members in the course of a year. Then, less than a month before Cig's workshop, I received news that my estranged father had died. This brought about a completely different set of feelings in regard to the death of family and the loss of 'home'.

After a long period of processing my feelings, I finally began to make images again during this past summer. I am currently exploring my feelings of helplessness, sadness, isolation, loneliness, depression, and anxiety through my landscape and narrative tableau imagery.

I am navigating these periods of unknowing in an attempt to work through my grief and come to some kind of understanding, whatever that may be. I am a work in progress.

I thank those who have carried me through these difficult times, those who have shared their own experiences, and those who I have loved.

In Remembrance of You
Aunt Dorothy
Aunt Rita
dad
Rian Maiden
Kaylee Asplund
Grandpa Becker
Grandma Becker
Grandma Carter
Grandpa Carter
Uncle Dean

...among the trees

...among the trees

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Quidam

Quidam

shelter

shelter

echoes

echoes

let the water take me

let the water take me

harbinger

harbinger

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these paths we have chosen

these paths we have chosen

degeneration

degeneration

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to sleep without dreams

to sleep without dreams

frightened by shadows

frightened by shadows

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